Just

JUST

Just
as I sit and think on
all things that could be
but are not
I just
shake my head
I just
twiddle my thumbs
I just
        DESIRE

Just
as I calm the raging fire
inside with quick self-gratification
I just
wonder about the strength I'm missing
I just
ache from the load I continue to carry
I just
        YEARN

Just
as I decide that moving on
is better than whatever is in store
I keep finding myself stuck
and my mind
Just
refuses to stop thinking
and I lean further into oncoming traffic
I just

        WANT

Just
when things seem to be able to get
no worse,
no harder,
but not easier
I just
slip back in the cracks
I just
can't snap out of the revere
I just
        LONG

I just
        CRY
I just
        THINK
I just
        LOVE
I just
        WHAT??
JUST
(c) La-Shanta Holloway 2012