It Is

It's amazing
It's terrifying
It's new
It's old hat
This feeling is foreign
and unforgettable
Unrecognizable
and Oh to well known
Where did it come from
Why am I feeling it now?
How do I define it
How can I not
What am I to do with this?
Why do I want to try?
It's simple
It's complicated
It's fun 
and scary
I want to lose myself in the excitement I feel
I want to run and hide
I'm trying on my "grown a&& woman" 
but the little girl in me doesn't want to give it a shot
I can't explain it 
I don't know how 
I can't describe it
I'm reluctant to try 
This feeling is weird
This feeling is strange
This feeling is awesome
Why am I so afraid?
(c) 2011

Can I?

Can I release myself unto you?
Can I strive for a love that is complete and true?
Can I wish for dreams to be made whole?
Can I ask for one who can see deep within my soul?
Can I want love to shine bright in my eyes?
Can I have a love that reaches high into the skies?
So many times, so many things....
So much hope, so many dreams.

Can I have a love that I will one day share?
Can I have the feel of your fingers running through my hair?
Can I be free to express the way I feel?
Can I make you believe that it is all real?
Can I dream of your arms wrapped around me tight?
Can I dream of lying next to you night after night?
Can I dream of your face with the morning dew?
Can I dream--just dream of you?
So many times, so many things....
So much hope, so many dreams.

Can I? Can I? Can I?
Can I tell you of a love that I just cannot deny?
(c)2002

Take Your Place

Take your place
there's still room for one.
Stand at the base, in the mass
there's an abundance of love
waiting there for you.
Take your place
you're not required to lead
only be willing to follow
and obey, give it your all.
Take your place
claim your prize
Life everlasting
Forsake all else, receive the blessing.
Look up high and smile
Happily knowing that there's
still room for one.
And yet one more.
Take your place
and claim your joy. 
Take your place
and stand tall, stand strong
With others who've already claimed 
their own places.
With others who've chose to be
among the masses 
at the mountain's top.
Stand, pick up your cross.
Even though more have come, 
There's still room for one.
Hold your head high & proud
Stand up
Be not afraid
Nor be ashamed
Stand your ground
Give your praise
And take your place!
(c)2006

Dear Love

Dear love,
Last week I threw away your picture.
My heart was heavy, that's for sure.
But, I tossed it in the trash
like last week's garbage....
I almost went diving back in to pull it out.
(there was still much room for doubt)
And I wanted to try and salvage your memory
But, then, in my mind's eye your face filled the view in front of me.
So, I left the picture of your handsome face in the garbage bin.
I know that your memory will fade, so I'm moving on to something else 'til then.

Dear Love,
Last month, I tried really hard not to hear the tenor in your voice...
tried to forget how your laugh brought my heart so much joy.
But, the raspiness of your tone
stayed in my head all month long.
The deep resonating sound of your words bore into my brain
And like a popular song, I just wished it would rain.
That way, I'd hear instead
the sound of thunder and raindrops pounding on my head.

Dear Love,
Last year, I finally lost the sensation of your arms wrapped around me tight.
Of you snuggling close to me keeping me safe thru the night.
It took me a while, my dear,
But, finally, I forgot how I felt whenever your presence was so near.

Dear Love,
Time finally began moving again.
As I slowly forgot how I had you embedded in my brain.
My movements once again became precise and sure
As I came to grips with the fact that your arms would no more keep me secure.
My life pushed the play button finally and the picture showing now is just what it should be.

Me being me....
me being me without needing...

me being me without wanting...

me being me without yearning...

me being me without desiring...

me being me without wishing for...

me being me without loving...

Me being me without you, dear Love.

(c) January 2006

Still Going

I was broken
But, I'm still going
I was beaten
But, I'm still going
I was bruised
But, I'm still going.

I was knocked down, beaten up, and pushed around
But, I got up off the ground
I pushed up on my hands and knees
Now I stand tall-even high enough to touch the trees

I keep my head held high
My thoughts and eyes to the sky
I keep one foot in front of the other
One step, two steps, another and another

You can look at me as though I'm crazy
But to me, it doesn't matter what you see
No one ever said the going would be easy
To keep going is the key
No one ever said the road would be light
The answer is to keep the fight

I was broken
But, I'm still going
I was beaten
But, I'm still going
I was bruised
But, I'm still going

Everyone has to keep going
It's what keeps this life worth living
Never giving up, never giving in
I'm in this to stay - I plan to win

So, break me - You can try
Beat me - Sure, I'll cry
Bruise me, use me, push me down
I'll just get back up again and again

You can try, try hard, you're not gonna win
No matter what you're doing
I'm still going

Did U Feel Me?

Did U feel me last night
as I snuggled close to U
as I lay my head on Ur chest and watched
as Ur belly rose and fell with each breath U took
as I ran my fingertips across Ur jawline,
feeling the smoothness of Ur skin

Did U feel me last night
as I hugged my body even closer to Urs
as I felt the heat off Ur skin envelope me
making me feel safe
As I whispered how much I loved U so

Did U feel me last night
as I blinked back emotional tears
as I struggled to convey to U
that I would always be here for U
as I poured my love out for U
trying to make sure U understood how I feel for U

Did U feel me last night
as I made love to U
without making love to U
as I gave to U my heart
mind
body
soul
Did U feel me last night?

Naked I Stand

Naked I stand before U
my soul bared
my arms outstretched
my heart wide open.

Naked I stand before U
wanting to express my love in ways sex can never reveal
wanting to touch U in ways my fingers can never feel
wanting my eyes to speak volumes my voice can never carry
wanting to tell of my love for U in ways words can never define.

Naked I stand before U
Thoughts of wanting U fill my mind
Memories of Ur kisses brush my lips
The sensation of Ur arms wrapped around my body send
shivers up my spine.
The need to feel U fills me up
intoxicating like wine.
As my mind's eye conjures up a picture of your handsome grace
Goose bumps take over and a smile appears on my face

Naked I stand before U
trying to gauge your perception
wanting to prove I can be true
longing for the chance to give my love to U
exposed to the pain that could be caused by your rejection.

Naked I stand
Naked and alone
... and afraid
... and scarred
... and in love
Naked I stand before U