Still Going

I was broken
But, I'm still going
I was beaten
But, I'm still going
I was bruised
But, I'm still going.

I was knocked down, beaten up, and pushed around
But, I got up off the ground
I pushed up on my hands and knees
Now I stand tall-even high enough to touch the trees

I keep my head held high
My thoughts and eyes to the sky
I keep one foot in front of the other
One step, two steps, another and another

You can look at me as though I'm crazy
But to me, it doesn't matter what you see
No one ever said the going would be easy
To keep going is the key
No one ever said the road would be light
The answer is to keep the fight

I was broken
But, I'm still going
I was beaten
But, I'm still going
I was bruised
But, I'm still going

Everyone has to keep going
It's what keeps this life worth living
Never giving up, never giving in
I'm in this to stay - I plan to win

So, break me - You can try
Beat me - Sure, I'll cry
Bruise me, use me, push me down
I'll just get back up again and again

You can try, try hard, you're not gonna win
No matter what you're doing
I'm still going

Did U Feel Me?

Did U feel me last night
as I snuggled close to U
as I lay my head on Ur chest and watched
as Ur belly rose and fell with each breath U took
as I ran my fingertips across Ur jawline,
feeling the smoothness of Ur skin

Did U feel me last night
as I hugged my body even closer to Urs
as I felt the heat off Ur skin envelope me
making me feel safe
As I whispered how much I loved U so

Did U feel me last night
as I blinked back emotional tears
as I struggled to convey to U
that I would always be here for U
as I poured my love out for U
trying to make sure U understood how I feel for U

Did U feel me last night
as I made love to U
without making love to U
as I gave to U my heart
mind
body
soul
Did U feel me last night?

Naked I Stand

Naked I stand before U
my soul bared
my arms outstretched
my heart wide open.

Naked I stand before U
wanting to express my love in ways sex can never reveal
wanting to touch U in ways my fingers can never feel
wanting my eyes to speak volumes my voice can never carry
wanting to tell of my love for U in ways words can never define.

Naked I stand before U
Thoughts of wanting U fill my mind
Memories of Ur kisses brush my lips
The sensation of Ur arms wrapped around my body send
shivers up my spine.
The need to feel U fills me up
intoxicating like wine.
As my mind's eye conjures up a picture of your handsome grace
Goose bumps take over and a smile appears on my face

Naked I stand before U
trying to gauge your perception
wanting to prove I can be true
longing for the chance to give my love to U
exposed to the pain that could be caused by your rejection.

Naked I stand
Naked and alone
... and afraid
... and scarred
... and in love
Naked I stand before U

Did U Touch Me?

Did U touch me?
I know, I know that sounds like a weird question to ask.
But, as I stand here in awestruck confusion, thinking of u, I can only ask,
Did U touch me?

It might have been that soft caress your eyes brushed on my face 

as you gazed deep into me

Or, it could have been that breeze off your breath 

as you whispered in my ears

with words so soft
they crashed into me so hard they drew tears

Could it have been a fathom graze of your fingertips 

on my skin

I ask again, 

Did U touch me?

I listen daily to your words of endearment

from your mouth to God's ears, 

bypassing my soul

My yearning desire to light a fire from my toes

to the tipy top of my head

Causing confusion and excitement

and loss of breath

a light to glean in my eyes

for everyone passing by to see

I need to know, 

Did U touch me?

As I sleep and dream, and toss and turn

alone in my bed

as my core being burns

with thoughts, hopes, dreams

Deep in the middle of the night

thoughts so clear I awake in fright

Afraid of what might be,

should be,

could never be,

between we

Just tell me,

Did U touch me?

As I gaze upon ur image floating thru my head

As I wonder with fear, delight, unadulterated dread

As I consider options

choices that I'm not free to make

As I think of futures that will never be 

I clearly wonder

When

How

Where

Did U touch me?

Just For A Moment

Just for a moment
I had life by the horns
Just for a moment
I understood the path I'd taken
Just for a moment
Things seem to go just grand
Just for a moment
Now still everything stands.

Just for a moment
I thought love was at my door
Just for a moment
I could feel the blood pump in my veins
Just for a moment
I thought everything was in place
Just for a moment
Now the door's been slammed in my face.

Just for a moment
Not one tear I cried
Just for a moment not one minute I missed
Just for a moment
Not one hour I longed for
Just for a moment
It was him I adored.

Just for a moment
Life took me on a ride
Just for a moment
My seatbelt wasn't locked in place
Just for a moment
I laughed into the sun
Just for a moment
Now that moment is done.
(c) 2005

My Eyes Are Open

     My eyes are open
To the way things are now
     My eyes are open
To the bonds that have been keeping me bound.

     My eyes are open
Not only to what I can see, but also for what I feel
     My eyes are open
To the unfair, to the unreal.

     It was dark at first
And there was an undeniable thirst
     for knowledge to understand
What was happening, the old
     And tattered plan

I didn't know how to describe
     Everything I was feeling inside.
I had to sit down
     look to places where happiness could be found
Tweak my mind, make tough decisions
     As I looked up, I suddenly
had clear vision....

And now I know what is for me IS for me
No longer shall my sight be darkened
Now, I see clearly, my eyes are open.

(What the heck was I thinking when I wrote this??? OMG but OK)
(c) 2004

Trust

It has been misplace, misused & misunderstood
It has been taken lightly, destroyed, killed & taken for granted
It can be earned, won & deserved
It can be given, received & denied
Many have tried to regain it
Even more have lost it completely
It is wanted & it is refused
It can be given with limitations
or completely with faith
It can be blindly given
or tentatively received
It is, and can be, many things
but without love,
trust is really nothing at all.